Three years after the first shut down. In this supposedly post pandemic world. I’ve maybe gotten over the concept that things will ever go back to what we considered normal before. Society has shifted. Maybe for good. Not saying it’s positive or negative, it just is. Live performance venues around the Bay Area are shutting down. Bars and restaurants are struggling. I still don’t have an urge to go out to a crowded bar for happy hour. Are there still happy hours? I don’t exactly know where this feeling is coming from. I’m not afraid. I rarely wear a mask unless I have to. I have no problem being out in the world to take care of business. To work, to shoot. But for some reason, going out just for fun feels a little wrong. It’s more appealing to stay in. Keep gatherings small. Cook at home, order take out. Going out somehow still feels little naughty. A little edgy. Like I said, I don’t know where this is coming from. Is it collective trauma? Echos of the pandemic? When if ever will we get our groove back? Things still feel a little dangerous and uncertain. Fortunately models and artists are pretty eager to collaborate and create again. Like this set with Kamila. @hypeaar on Insta. I caught her on a California tour from Poland. A little modeling, a little Burning Man. It’s a pretty dark and moody set. Maybe that’s what’s got me in this melancholy mood. Maybe things will feel better in the Spring.